Pontificating????

Cleaned out some blogs from my follow list this a.m. -- feeling a bit overwhelmed with life , spring really needs to make its presence known. I have a Rotator Cuff problem that is nagging me, forcing me to recognize what is important and what is not. Which are...

#1 Family and relationships.

#2 My Art

Does that make me a bad artist?

I think it makes me a better one, knowing what is important to me I'm able to bring those experiences into my work, but do I? No, I hold back. Why?
I'm so easily distracted by outside forces making it difficult to come down to the truth.
I would like to blame it on all kinds of different circumstances,what it boils down to is just me and my art, Nothing else, sure outside pressure , but I have to remain true to myself, its a battle both inside and out.
I have lost sight and have taken many side roads, some beautiful and some very ugly. I do believe that most of the side trips will benefit me as a person and therefore my art.
I feel the tug every hour of the day, the tug to create, I have failed to recognize, or honor that tug.

Please Dear Muse
Forgive me, stand by my side once again, bringing back the once innocence that bloomed, the insight that has been masked with garbage, the knowledge of inspiration that once graced my hands and mind, poured out from within. I would like once again to feel your heart beating against mine, filled with inspiration, wisdom and steadfastness.
I'm ready for a new Journey.